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no, no. i'm not a Carrie White apologist, that makes it seem like she has something to be sorry for. I am a Carrie White enabler.
You light the fire early in your girlhood. You stoke it and tend it. You protect it at all costs. You don't let it rage into a mountain of light, because that's not becoming of a girl. You keep it secret. You let it burn. You look into the eyes of other girls and see their fires flickering there, offer conspiratorial nods, never speak aloud of a near-unbearable heat, a growing conflagration.
From Rachel Yoder's Nightbitch
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